Open Letter to…

30 03 2014

Dear …,

I write this letter as a means of closure in the chapter of our friendship/relationship/business/whatever you want to call it.  I have taken plenty of steps back.  I have given you the benefit of the doubt.  I have, against my good judgement, remained calm and refrained from going H.A.M. on your people.  You STILL have not done the righteous thing to do, so at this point I am cutting you off completely.

Your people have disrespected me on a level that embarrassed you and supposedly prompted you to tell them to apologize to me.  This of course is only hearsay, being that you never called me back to confirm this or speak on it.  Nor have you forced the guilty party to atone for their transgressions.  I guess you figured you would just sweep that under the rug, similar to the way you apologized to me for violating.  In private.  Never in public.

Why didn’t you ever address these issues to everyone that was affected?  Why did you treat it like some big taboo secret that nobody was to mention?  Could it be because you still held resentment for my righteous action which trumped your cowardly actions?  REAL people would not only apologize for transgressions, but would take corrective measures to insure healing.  Or did you think that what occurred between you and I were small potatoes?  If so, why did things go south for you and everyone else involved since then?  Look at your group.  Things were never the same since I left, which is precisely why for the past 3 years you wanted me back.  You didn’t have to lie to me.  I hear it.  Everyone still speaks about it, just not to you.

All I ever wanted was for people to do the RIGHT thing.  You however, would much rather lie than do righteous action.  Tell the truth.

Tell them how you wanted me to run things and offered that opportunity to me 5 years ago.

Tell them how you really feel about their inner and outer weakness.

Tell them what you told me about myself and the other really good guy.  Tell them that you would have failed without us.

Or better yet, tell them the truth about themselves.

Tell them what they need to hear to avoid over compensating for a lack of ability.

Tell them something that will make them stop deifying your words and make them start living it.

Tell them something to make them better people in the long run, even if it means hurting their temporary feelings.


But I get it.  I can’t expect you to ever tell them the truth.  All of this is far too difficult if you constantly lie to yourself.

You know, the worst part of this is the fact that you had all the potential in the world to make these people better.  Instead you just enabled them to be worse.  That was NEVER supposed to be in your job description.  YOU KNOW THIS TOO!

How does it feel to purposely and knowingly lead these people astray?  Can you sleep at night safely knowing that one if not most of these people that depend on you can and will be hurt because you never gave them the necessary information they needed to become better?

I sure wouldn’t want that on my conscious.  I am glad I had nothing to do with all of this.

I am embarrassed to even be associated.  Moving forward, I will do everything in my power to NOT be associated with your foolishness.


In closing, you are a nice person.  Unfortunately you lack a spine.  This is where your niceness ends.  Being nice is not enough.  If MLK Jr. was nice, the Civil Rights movement would not have had such a strong necessary leader.  What have your niceties brought you except more drama and fake friends?  Real friends will tell you the truth, no matter what.  Regardless of if you are right or dead wrong.  And despite your choices, they will stand by your side and help you face the consequences of your decision.


Do you even have one of these?


Walk by me in the future and don’t acknowledge me.  I no longer acknowledge you.

Sincerely and in clear conscious,

J. Wellington


p.s. – I forgive you.  But please keep in mind, just because I forgive you does not mean that the bridge can ever be built again.  If you don’t believe it, break a glass on your kitchen floor, then apologize.  See if automatically comes back together.  1


Judgement: The Root of Evil (Notes from 01/29/14 – Convo with J. Braxton)

28 03 2014

No.  It’s not money.

To find the root of evil, you have to find the origin in our existence.

In Genesis, there were two trees of note.

The Tree of Life and the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil.

The fruit of the tree of life, was life (eternal).

The fruit of the tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil is Judgement.

Good and Evil is the Noun element.  Judgement is the Verb element.


Why did we focus on one tree but not the other?  If we focused on “Our” tree, and not “God’s” tree, we would still be in paradise.

Bring that sentence into 2014.

If we focused more on LIFE (Living/Love/Joy) and not JUDGEMENT, our world would BE PARADISE.

How many wars would we have if we all loved each other as we loved ourselves?  (Follow Christ’s Commandments)

In every area of human relation that brings strife, judgement is present.  Rid yourself of judgement and enjoy a new experience called life.  (Enlightenment)

Armor by J. Wellington

25 03 2014

I am not your knight in shining armor.

Mine has shims scratches and scrapes.

I can’t be your knight in shining armor.

Too many dents that can’t be banged back into shape.

My amour doesn’t have that smooth aura and sheen,

It has stripes of dirt and grime.

Too many missing plates for my visage to be considered sublime.

The arm band does not shimmer.  It’s stained with drops of blood.

The remnants of the bear that tried to attack the children, I had to club.

The back plates are crushed, some pierced til you see the skin.

While in battle, the dragon’s jaws, captured me and started to sink in.

I struggled to get free and took damage to say the least

Right before with my left hand, a proper swipe fell the beast.

My chest plate never smooth, for it is riddled with arrow tips.

The only remaining proof that the invaders from the north no longer exist.

See, I know and can grasp the beauty of the Shining armors sight.

But know that their armor shines so bright, for they have never seen a fight.

They have never struggled to save you, they have never strained to be,

The man that is worthy for your bed-chamber to see.

Please forgive my forwardness, for your chastity I seek not to mark.

I only seek to have my name forever written on your heart.

So marvel at the sights that shine.  For you cause I’ll gladly be a martyr.

But know that I did it all for you.  Sincerely, your Knight in rugged armor.

For Me

23 03 2014

I love the beauty of this world.

The simplicity of it all can be so complex.

The skyline kissing the water…

The Backdrop for buildings…

The placement of stars…

The intoxicating aura of the ocean…

Infinite from my perspective…

The incredible variety of fellow inhabitants of this beautiful Blue-Green Ball…

We crawl… We Walk…

We slide, slither and fly…

we jump, we stand still and stretch..

So many colors… so many textures…

And then there is us…

Simple… complex

The crown jewel and biggest flaw…

the sizes and shapes, abilities and limitations…

the stories of inspiration…

The acts of fear and heroism…

The ability to love and spread love…

the strength and intelligence of man…

The beauty and intoxicating aura of woman…

the blending, mixing and matching of these to create anew…

I have a front row seat to watch as I participate.

I enjoy what I see and thus shall continue to do so…

Until the show is over and I wake up…